Another baby in the house?

I was 28 when I conceived my eldest girl, Aleesya which was a year and a half after my marriage in 2001. I got hitched rather a lil' bit 'overdue' despite the 9 years of courtship. Luckily we did end up together, otherwise what a waste of time, not to mention money too!!! So, gave birth to her on 5th May 2003 at 29 years old and being the only baby in the house, both mine and my parents', Aleesya never failed to be the center of attention. Every wish of hers was gladly granted, turning her into a pleasantly pampered girl. So, she grew up a happy young girl....

In May 2006, another baby was making her way to the world, Alyana born on 16th January 2006. My pregnancy scan was a boy. Guess 'he' decided to have a sex change at the 11th hour...hehehe. Well, both my girls are premmie babies but born safe and sound, no complications at all except very mild jaundice lasted for about a week or two. Aleesya was 2 years and 10 months old when Alyana made her arrival. I could clearly recall how affected she was upon the arrival of her new baby sis. Tantrums, screams, cries and what nots just for the attention she desperately needed. At times she would disappear and sneak into my room when my eyes were elsewhere and there came cries of her baby sis. Aleesya had this habit of poking and squeezing Alyana's head for no reason...wait, jealousy maybe? Adjustments and acceptance took a while.....

Today, my two angels are the best of friends and the worst of enemies at the same time. Aleesya has turned 5 and Alyana is 2 1/2 now. And still there's no signs whatsoever of another child adding to the present list...I'm all ready if it happened but not my hubby. He has his reasons for putting this particular plan on hold for the time being, maybe till August. So, Alyana has never made an encounter seeing me pregnant or anyone else for that matter but to my disbelief, of late she has been giving me signs and hints of pregnancy, claiming there's a baby in her own belly! It's rather frequent now. Should I start worrying...for myself or a two year old carrying a baby in her belly? Hmmm....

Just this afternoon, we went for a kenduri aqiqah (welcoming a new baby) at a neighbour's house. There was where Alyana had her first upclose and personal encounter with a baby as young as 3 weeks old. I observed and couldn't help to notice how she was amazed and stiffened by the sight of that incredibly tiny baby. Alyana longed to touch the beautiful baby but too afraid or worried to do so, her eyes told the whole story though. It hit me. Does she want one of her own? She came home babbling about it and I realized that she was indulged in this baby idea. So, Ayah, what should we do now? Switch on the button and activate it? I think we should. So, lets renew the license a.s.a.p! Hehehehe....

Stick it, girls...

This is one hell of a game which my girls seem to enjoy so much on a Sunday morning!!! The stickers were from a nephew's birthday party from the day before, packed with other noisy yet very brilliant stuffs which I myself find very entertaining. Wish there's one goody pack of sort for this 34 year old lady...hahaha!!!!






This reminds me of the good old days when i was a sticker maniac one time, I was 10. Hello Kitty rules....

Queens of the Jungle

Finally, it happened on 5th June 2008 - Zoo Malaysia was attacked by two enthusiastic Einsteins in the making!

Esya and Yana definitely had the time of their lives....yes, with the company of the animals of the jungles. I suppose, Ibu and Ayah have to step back now. For two solid hours, the girls were entertained by the sights and sounds of these creatures especially at the roar of the tigers and lions (I'm also a roaring tiger at home, but not to their liking, i guess)...Esya was walking with the map of the zoo, trying to make out the spots we were standing on every time and somehow we were tortured by this map reading skill of hers, hmm..irritated is more like it! And she kept insisting that we go find the elephant each time we past a station. What's with this elephant? Can somebody tell me? And when we finally met the elephants, there she was saying Hi Elephant and just walked away. Is that all???? Just a Hi???? I don't get it.

Anyway, what's important is the kids had fun there and they wanted to go back next time, and next time is specifically made clear to us that it's THIS WEEK!!! Oh my God...Not again.


More pics here http://sheraghani.fotopages.com/?entry=1571594

Guilty as charged

I was doing a BM reading session with Esya yesterday at around 5pm whilst marking my exam scripts at the same time, thinking I could manage both well. Boy, I was wrong!

Esya smooth-sailed in the beginning, making me a proud mom, when she suddenly failed to pronounce 'ME' correctly and that really struck me! I, as calm as I could be, instantly corrected her and made her repeat it for a few times and resumed marking my papers every time, in turn, leaving her to continue practising her reading on her own. Well, obviously she lacked due attention and I of course failed to notice that. I went on marking instead. Again, she repeated the same mistake and I somehow got really mad, went berserk and to my disbelief, I raised my voice out of anger and frustration over her repeated mistake. Believe it or not, never had I screamed at my students in school the way I did to my own daughter! Being a 5 year old girl, she started to shed tears and broke down right in front of me, apologising for her failure............

Was it her failure or mine? Her cries and constant apologies finally brought me to my senses. I failed to see the needs of my little girl that attention was all she needed at that particular moment. I arrogantly thought I could multi-task and excel at both and??? I was totally wrong. And I couldn't believe that I actually jeopardised my daughter's emotional and intellectual state to prove that I am a supermom!

Realising my mistake, I set aside my exam papers and took Esya into my arms, reassuring her that it wasn't her failure at all for not being able to read correctly. So, I sat next to her, took her book close to me and started going through the whole session all over again, giving her all due attention and guidance. Yes, after a session of proper coaching, Esya finally made it through with a wide glowing smile on her face. And I???? I owe it to her a lesson I learnt today - At times I just have to surrender the idea of being a supermom!!!

Sorry kakak......thanks to u! Ibu sayang kakak......

ps - i had always thought i could multi-task at anything! obviously not. sigh...